Racing....

Today I have to run.....

did you catch that.

I HAVE to run, like in, physically have to run.






I made a resolution {who didn't??}. I would run, every other day in January. I have already failed. I had a good excuse{who doesn't??}. So two days ago, I got back from my 4 day hiatus and ran. So today, I have to run.

I am hoping the HAVE to, will turn into the WANT to. I know it will, but as I lay in bed last night, my mind was racing. Not just about running. I would think.......... tomorrow-









I have to do this.



I have to do that.



And this.



And that.

My world has been totally rocked.

In a good way, no doubt, but it has been rocked.





Everyday for almost 8 years, my evening menu was planned and prepared for by at least 7am that day. I had school projects on the calendar, school lunches packed, I would be committed to this, be committed to that, and my laundry was always folded and put away. I ran a business and most of the time it all worked like clockwork. All is true but the laundry part; those who know me, know I don't do laundry. As in, laundry does me in. I hate it. My mom did. I do. And I am convinced my children will LOVE it, because I make them do it for me ;) Ha!

I know it will take time. But I NEED to get my groove on. Lord, PLEASE send me a groove!



Trying to Want to, more than Have to right now.

I know I will get there. It's just different. Very different. Like, my heart races sometimes; different. And to confuse you more, a lot of my HAVE to's are WANT to's ; I just feel like I am not enjoying them to the fullest and I am just making it through. Do I make any sense at all???








All the pics are from us keeping our nephew a few days this past week. It was a total WANT to, and we'll take him anytime Caleb :)